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Batten down the hatches.

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Life does what it will. Pema Chodron would call what I’m feeling “groundlessness” and would, I’m sure, urge me to just let myself be in the feeling and not to fight it. And I’m not, I’m not fighting it.

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It just sucks ass, is all.

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Fear. How it rises up and swamps our little boats of paper. How it rushes and rolls over us. How we roll ragdoll limp downstream, our mouths full of bitter water, our tears empty in the vast waterlogged world.

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Ah, yes.

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I am determined to love this world and all of its particulars. Especially the people in it. And myself. And my family.

We’ll man the oars until the ship goes down.

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